Last chance clomid

     This month has been a difficult one. Seems like everywhere I look there is nothing but bad news. Needless to say this was another failed cycle for me. I took a test on Christmas eve and it was a BFN **Yeah...Merry Christmas to me**so I went to the doc to inform her of our latest failure and to get another prescription for clomid. She suspects I may have a mild form of PCOS? I'm confused by this because I have fairly regular periods, nothing ever showed up in the scan I had done some years ago and I seem to ovulate regularly though some months I've noticed I ovulate fairly late and my fluctuating luteal phase which has ranged from 12 to 19 days (was reviewing my ff chart statistics today). She hasn't ordered anymore blood work but I think she may be waiting till I finish the last cycle of clomid. Oh yeah she said this will be my last cycle on clomid. I'm going to be taking 150 that's higher than last cycle so I'm going to brace myself for some awesome side effects. This cycle my side effects were headaches, hot flashes and dizzy spells. Fun, fun, fun. The things we go through to get pregnant. Doc also said that if the next cycle of clomid doesn't work she will put me on femara. I hate that this cycle wasn't the one but at least things seem to be moving in the right direction. To those who had failed cycles or suffered a loss I pray that 2013 is our year. Sending you all big hugs, best wishes and lots of baby dust!!!

Sucker punched

  Today I thought I would be writing about the side effects of Clomid I experienced but as of yesterday this post turned into a little more than that. I was getting ready to move out of state with OH, we were going to get a fresh new start. Better pay, ***health insurance*** more free time to spend with each other and the possibility of actually seeing an RE. A week before my OH was scheduled to go, he receives an email. This email was informing us that we would no longer be moving, that things would for now continue as they had. Needless to say we were devastated. We waited almost 2 years to get an opportunity like this one and it blew up in our face. My heart is broken. I would like to ask those who pray to include us in your prayers.