BBT vs OPK

  

  This is a mini post and for that I am sorry. Ah yes, the 2 week wait with a twist. As if the 2 week wait was not stressful enough... according to my temps I ovulated 4 days ago but according to my opk I ovulated after that, most likely yesterday. My cervical position and texture align with the opk. Aren't the opk supposed to be positive just before ovulation? well mine have been positive after alleged ovulation this  cycle so I don't know what to trust. Why would it be positive after? What should I go with bbt or opk? I'm so confused. Please help :(

Puerto Rico and an hsg test = maybe

   I talked to my doc about "operation hsg" (read previous post) and she said she would order it for me if they accept to perform the test with her orders. Now I just have to wait and see if my cycle goes as planned for that month so I can have the hsg done on CD10. She didn't find anything unusual during the pelvic exam so all clear there. She ordered a SA for my bf so he should be getting that done soon and then we can focus on what the heck is going on with my body.I feel really good now that I feel I may actually get some answers. It is so important that one finds a doctor you can trust, one that will actually help and understands where you're coming from. In the mean time I will be charting temps, cm, cp and "o" tracker. I'm hoping I'll get it right this cycle and not completely miss my window as I did previously. Who knows miracles can happen, I may be pregnant before I get the hsg done *fingers crossed* ;)

 

 

Today's quote... "Let hope anchor you in the possibility that this is not the end of your story, that change will bring you to peaceful shores"

International "Operation hsg"?

Later today I have another appointment with my doctor. I will be having a pelvic exam to check for signs of infection, endometriosis, or any visible signs of what could possibly be causing my infertility. In this past week I had to think about how I would go about getting an hsg test since I have no insurance at the moment. So here's what I have so far...In October I am going to Puerto Rico for my grandparents'  50th wedding anniversary, this trip is already paid for. I found out that an hsg test and required pregnancy test are about a 4th of the price of what I would be charged here in the US so I was thinking while I'm there I could try to get this done. The cons of this whole "operation hsg" are I need a doc there to order the test for me or to at least consider ordering it for me because of my medical history with infertility here, I also have to have the hsg test done on CD10 and though according to my calculations and fertility friend I should be in PR around that time, we all know that predicting your next period is not an exact science so it's all kind of a gamble. Today when I go for my exam I'm going to ask my doc if she can help with this ordeal and if she agrees I'm going to work on finding out if a lab in PR can do it with her ordering the hsg or if a doc in PR will order it based on her recommendations and my medical history. I am praying and hoping this all works out so I can get the hsg done in PR. All prayers, finger crossing and positive thoughts are appreciated.

 

 

Today's quote   "The hard times you go through will lead you to the good times you'll have"

Cycle Fail... but wait there's more!

This cycle had some unexpected twists and turns. I charted temps, cm, cp and I used O trackers. In spite of my efforts i miscalculated my O day and completely missed my window. I held out hopes that my chart was mistaken as it had been before (it falsely claimed I o'd earlier) so I waited but now after 2 ominous temp drops in a row, I think it's safe to call it a bust. I can't deny I'm disappointed in how it all played out but I have to admit there is still hope and lots of it! :) I have a doc appointment on Wednesday and I'm determined to get some answers and some much needed help. I need to know what my options are, what is going on with my body that's not allowing me to conceive. I will be heard this time, I will not be dismissed because of my age or any other reason for that matter. I need to know. I will not stop fighting, this is what I want most. My biggest dream in life. I'm going to reach for it. As always I would like to leave you all with a quote...

"Don't confuse your path with your destination. Just because it's stormy now doesn't mean you aren't headed for sunshine"  

"O" day alert!

     In my head it feels like there's a million little cells running around in chaos yelling "O" alert! 'O" alert! while some kind of loud siren sounds off in the background.

On CD13 I got a confirmed positive on my "O" tracker. Unfortunately there was no BD due to my BF feeling ill. But tonight my friends is the night ;) I had another positive today on my "O" tracker so I'm really hoping I haven't missed my window of opportunity. According to my BBT chart I haven't missed my window so I'm feeling rather positive. I would like to ask everyone who ventures into this post if you could kindly send me positive thoughts and *baby dust*. I've waited 10 years for my chance, I pray this is the one even though odds are against me. Sorry this is such a short post. I would like to leave you all with a quote ...

                                                      "Don't be pushed by your problems, be led by your Dreams"

TTC messing with my mind

   Today a thought made its way into my head, once there it wreaked a little havoc and left me feeling not so great at first. I started thinking about the "what ifs", yes it's only CD9 but my mind could not help but wonder. I thought maybe I let too much time go by. What if I'm not ovulating anymore? What if I have poor egg quality? What if my uterus is no good?(hasn't really been for the last 10 years) What if something is wrong with my tubes or ovaries and it was just missed? What if? what if? what if? Well after what seemed like an endless amount of time (probably half n hour) of feeling like maybe I should just wait until I find a suitable doctor, I thought there really isn't anything I can do right now about these "what if" scenarios so why don't I...

1- Just take a deep breath.

2- Acknowledge the thoughts and worries.

3- Acknowledge that there isn't anything that can be done about them at the moment.

4- Realize that I still very much want to give it a try even if there is a negative outcome.

 5- Keep going and think positively.

  
    The truth is I don't know what will happen in the future but it's not going to keep me from trying that much I do know. I would like to leave you all with a quote ...

                 "Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose"  

This is not my first rodeo...

   As I had stated in my first post I have been ttc before so when I went to buy my ttc supplies I knew what the basics were. I bought an OPK, BBT thermometer (Oh yes, I'm charting) and the dreaded pregnancy tests. See in my first post I failed to mention I had gone to a fertility specialist a few years back and I was "checked out" and apparently everything was in good shape . He actually saw that I was getting ready to release an egg *sigh* ahhhh yes I was and am ovulating. From what he could see there was nothing wrong with my uterus or ovaries. This did not have the expected effect of elation, oh no this actually made me feel devastated because the reality was I wasn't getting pregnant. Then I was dismissed because I was young and according to him "I had time". So now I'm back to charting. Truth is I think I'm actually scared of going back to a specialist and being dismissed. It's ok though, I'm feeling pretty positive that things may just work out with good timing, vitamins  and baby aspirin. Please don't mistake this for me being delusional because I'm well aware that this may not work at all and that I may just be avoiding the inevitable. I'm just hopeful. I would like to leave you all with a question if you happen by this post feel free to leave an answer on my comments,what have you added or taken off your diet to improve your chances at ttc?